[[ooc: Damn sorry I'm so late with this, I slept 20 hours, Shichi take your time]]

[justicereigns]

GARP! GIVE ALLEN BACK RIGHT THIS INSTANT! I'M NOT PLAYING!

Kamui, Havoc, either work out your differences peacefully or find a way to deal with being on separate parts of the ship when Kamui and Subaru visit next.

Tsuzuki, I got you more candy. Stop drinking.
Yuzuriha thanks for talking to him.

We're docking in 3 more days. Finish shit up.

Roy I can duel you there if you don't want to wait for Kanda and Okita's brawl.

Vongola, did you guys deal with the ship situation?

Fuck, I need a drink.

Comments

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

i will try to remember that sir .

[justicereigns]

Tsuzuki. I mean it. In fact I'll be more offended if you don't come find me when you're upset. I will count that as lying, understand? No matter how busy I am, I will try to make time. Especially when it's important.

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

you neednt be sir . you have other matters to attend to as captain of the lady justice and as a marine commodore . you have responsibilities to your personal life with miss karen . i am a seaman recruit and i should man up and get stronger or fall behind .

i am not your problem anyway .

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[justicereigns]

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What are you talking about? Of course you're my problem. You're one of my marines and my friend. I care about you.

[justicereigns]

Why do you think I asked you to come to me?!

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

im not naive enough to not know that i am a burden . you shouldnt have to shoulder them because i am too weak . you have your duties . you have a family that youre trying to build . i dont want ruin peoples lives anymore . doesnt anyone get that . first ace and now you . . .

[justicereigns]

No. No. Tsuzuki, little idiot.

When I said you're not my problem I meant, YOU DO NOT CAUSE ME PROBLEMS. You do not wear me down secret weapon. If you haven't noticed I deal with far more stranger psychopaths than you on a daily basis. My idea of stress relief is beating pirates senseless and yelling at Mello; something that stressed you out. You, are not a bad thing in my life. You, Tsuzuki, have done NOTHING, but help me, little idiot puppy. I do not make many friends, I do consider you one and I do not do that lightly. Talking to you helped me work things out with Karen and fuck, a dozen more ways than I can express. You have never been a burden on me Tsuzuki. I'm actually offended you'd even think that. I'm not a nice enough guy to pretend to put up with someone who's annoying me, in case you haven't realized.

OOC: My heart broke to write this... and I still didn't get it all...

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

i know im an idiot but im trying to protect you all from me . i never wanted to be a curse . i just wanted to be accepted but it never seems to be possible . everywhere I go people get hurt because of me . people get worn down by the baggage i carry and they leave like tatsumi and hisoka . people go through hell because of me like the chief and enma daioh trying to protect me . people die for no reason because of me like mariko tsubaki professor mitani and countless others . even luka died because of me . im so tired for destroying people . why cant i protect people for a change . why cant i do the right thing and just walk away . people would be better off if i were gone . . .

dont you see . no one can carry my crosses for me . no one should . they can't handle it . i dont want to hurt those who have been so good to me . the ones that i care about and respect . . . i dont want to ruin you too .

Re: OOC: *HUGS HIM!!!!!*

[justicereigns]

No.

I'm not carrying your crosses kid, but I am making you carry your own. You can't run away from people who want to protect and help you just because you think they'll get hurt from it. Even if they do, that's part of being in a crew. On this ocean, crews were formed to protect each other. Just as in that idiotic wolf game; the way to beat it is not to distrust everyone, it's to band together and watch each other's backs. The only reason I haven't been kicked out of the marines (aside from being the best damn hunter they've got) is that people like Hina, Garp, and Aokiji have my back.

You're not a burden to me. You're my secret weapon idiot. I told you before Tsuzuki and I still will. If you were a danger to me or anyone on this crew, I wouldn't allow you to stay. I'm not that nice. I do what I must to protect my crew. You're gentle. You don't even enjoy sparring. I don't fear you. Not even around Pearl. Snap out of feeling sorry for yourself. You're not that weak.

OOC: Um we'll try to make that work... He sobered after that. /V8/

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

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For the sake of my promise, I will do my best to be more honest with you, but please know this is no small task for me. It's the only way I know how to live. Please be patient with me as I learn, Smoker.

[justicereigns]

I will Tsuzuki. I don't expect complete turn around overnight.

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

Thank you... and I am sorry that I hurt your feelings.

[justicereigns]

That's not quite the words I'd use.

[amethystsregret.livejournal.com]

I said you were offended...

[justicereigns]

I simply expect better from my officers.

[countsdream.livejournal.com]

SMOKER! I MESSED UP! AHHH!

[justicereigns]

What the fuck?!

[countsdream.livejournal.com]

I THOUGHT IT WAS CANDY! HE ATE THE OTHER HALF, SO I THOUGHT IT WAS OK!

[justicereigns]

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[countsdream.livejournal.com]

... I'm sorry I'm such a screw up...