[Okay, he is a grown ass adult. He can fucking handle this.]
[Although he protectively cuddles the hell out of Ace.]
[And snorts quietly. And gives more kisses.] Portgas, I'm not going to stop fucking you, no matter what you do. I already tried a dozen times. I'm giving up that fight. You win. I'm yours.
Guidance and strength....
All right. Come here, Portgas.
[PICKS HIM UP IN A GIANT SMOKER CLOUD OF CUDDLES until he figures out a position to hold Ace, his lover, just right.]
Nothing you say, nothing you do, will ever make me stop wanting to fucking you. It might make me worry. About you. Got it? [Pets Ace's hair and kisses the top of his head.] I told you, half of your family worried you were only with me to punish yourself. Sometimes even I wondered.
[Pet.]
[CUDDLE HUG!!!]
[FIERCEST HUG.]
I'm going to tell you something I've never told anyone. Not any other version of you, not Kuzan, not a damn soul.
I saw Roger's execution -- that's well known. What isn't... I became a marine, to try to best him too.
When I said you're my only equal, I mean it. [Serious eyes on Ace's. Waiting for a glimmer of understanding sinking in.] I figured it out. A while ago. Only here. But I knew you wanted to best him too. And part of why Straw Hat has to be King for you. [Ruffles Ace's hair and holds him close, his heart to Ace's head. Giant fluffy cuddly hug.] Your words influencing me to take up G5 and lead them... and letting them be so much like you personally... you did more than him. More than Roger.
[Ruffles Ace's hair.] People talk a lot about the things he did, but you didn't leave people behind. You moved them forward. Do you understand?
[Snuggles his Ace.]
I don't think of him as your father. You made it very clear Whitebeard is your only father. And you fought to make that clear. And the world sees you a lot more as a son of Whitebeard than anything else.
And Portgas?
[Kisses his forehead.] I'm glad you were born. And yeah, I'm pretty shit at showing it, but I'm grateful you barreled into my life even worse than your younger brother and fucked it all up for me. Okay? [Messes his full hand in Ace's hair.] You deserve better than you give yourself credit for.
I meant it though. You could call me almost anything and it'll turn me on. It's a problem. Damn good thing I don't have to pretend respectability. And good thing I'm not a Guardian. Getting a hard-on every time you text me would be a problem. [Half joking, half serious, 100% trying to cheer Ace up.]
You don't have to fight the past anymore. All right? [Kisses his forehead!] Or the world. Or me. Do what you want. Within reason. [Snort and leans his head on Ace.] You mean more to me than I thought anything ever could. I want to hate it... but I can't. If it's you... it's just part of my world getting a little bigger. And better. A lot better.
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[Okay, he is a grown ass adult. He can fucking handle this.]
[Although he protectively cuddles the hell out of Ace.]
[And snorts quietly. And gives more kisses.] Portgas, I'm not going to stop fucking you, no matter what you do. I already tried a dozen times. I'm giving up that fight. You win. I'm yours.
Guidance and strength....
All right. Come here, Portgas.
[PICKS HIM UP IN A GIANT SMOKER CLOUD OF CUDDLES until he figures out a position to hold Ace, his lover, just right.]
Nothing you say, nothing you do, will ever make me stop wanting to fucking you. It might make me worry. About you. Got it? [Pets Ace's hair and kisses the top of his head.] I told you, half of your family worried you were only with me to punish yourself. Sometimes even I wondered.
[Pet.]
[CUDDLE HUG!!!]
[FIERCEST HUG.]
I'm going to tell you something I've never told anyone. Not any other version of you, not Kuzan, not a damn soul.
I saw Roger's execution -- that's well known. What isn't... I became a marine, to try to best him too.
When I said you're my only equal, I mean it. [Serious eyes on Ace's. Waiting for a glimmer of understanding sinking in.] I figured it out. A while ago. Only here. But I knew you wanted to best him too. And part of why Straw Hat has to be King for you. [Ruffles Ace's hair and holds him close, his heart to Ace's head. Giant fluffy cuddly hug.] Your words influencing me to take up G5 and lead them... and letting them be so much like you personally... you did more than him. More than Roger.
[Ruffles Ace's hair.] People talk a lot about the things he did, but you didn't leave people behind. You moved them forward. Do you understand?
[Snuggles his Ace.]
I don't think of him as your father. You made it very clear Whitebeard is your only father. And you fought to make that clear. And the world sees you a lot more as a son of Whitebeard than anything else.
And Portgas?
[Kisses his forehead.] I'm glad you were born. And yeah, I'm pretty shit at showing it, but I'm grateful you barreled into my life even worse than your younger brother and fucked it all up for me. Okay? [Messes his full hand in Ace's hair.] You deserve better than you give yourself credit for.
I meant it though. You could call me almost anything and it'll turn me on. It's a problem. Damn good thing I don't have to pretend respectability. And good thing I'm not a Guardian. Getting a hard-on every time you text me would be a problem. [Half joking, half serious, 100% trying to cheer Ace up.]
You don't have to fight the past anymore. All right? [Kisses his forehead!] Or the world. Or me. Do what you want. Within reason. [Snort and leans his head on Ace.] You mean more to me than I thought anything ever could. I want to hate it... but I can't. If it's you... it's just part of my world getting a little bigger. And better. A lot better.