Go back to the calming the fuck down thing and work on that. Or as Kuzan would say, chill.
And stop trying to pay me financially. It's weird.
You're not an idiot. I've been a mess with this sort of thing too. We're marines, so it comes part of the package.
Bring yourself. Act natural. Normal. Whatever that means for you. I'm not an expert on Kuzan. Your best bet is to use the date to learn him for yourself. Get to know what he likes or not and whether that's something you like too, okay?
Of course it's weird. I'm weird. I'm almost ten feet tall and I wear lipstick and I keep setting myself on fire and I don't even know how to breathe right now. Much less chill.
Please tell me that he actually likes me. He wouldn't agree to it if he didn't, right? A weekend alone says something about emotions involved, unless it's pity. And he wouldn't do that, I think?
I know how to go undercover. I know how to kill someone. How to fake a persona for years without ceasing. I do not know how to handle relationships.
Kuzan doesn't do pity. Empathy, but that's not the same.
I'm going to keep saying this, and you're not going to know what it means, but listen. Just be yourself. Use it as an opportunity to figure out what that means. And I don't get what's wrong with lipstick so I'm not the person to ask on that.
He likes... flamboyant? And he probably doesn't mind the setting on fire thing, probably finds it cute????? [It's good this isn't video, because Smoker is stretching his neck like an owl, so much head-tilting in his accidental physical thinking out loud and trying to stretch his brain to be thinking like Kuzan.]
[As far as Smoker knows, Aokiji likes big breasts. And not over the top serious conversations. So Nami, not Robin. Annnnnd?????]
[He has no idea. Smoker is a terrible friend.]
Don't think of it as handling. Just go in with the idea of having fun. I know. Believe me, I know, how impossible that sounds. Same with when I say, "Don't overthink it." I have trouble with all these things too. Don't look any further than this one event. Just this. Your mission is to enjoy it, and be yourself. And yes, that means figuring out what that means for you.
I'm not the person to ask about.... most of this. But that much I can say for sure.
This way, even if you don't hit it off uh... [He can't say "sexually" he'll vomit. Romant-- that's worse!!!]
[Compatibly....]
[TWITCHING.] In any way but as... what you already have.... then at least it's a good experience. Growing.
The things that are most important to Kuzan... from my perspective... which isn't the same as anyone else's...
Good conscience. Protective heart. Open to possibilities and thinking things through. Seeing things for himself. Ah, kids, the younger generation, and knowing that they're better than this one. A better future. And not that the strongest or most ruthless is justice. You've got all of that plenty, Rosinante. So I'm sure he appreciates that in you. A lot.
He also probably finds your reactions funny, so I don't think you can mess that up except by trying too hard to be fake. So don't, just be you. Clumsy flamingo and all. You've seen how he is with me, right? He purposely riles me up, and likes letting me blow off steam with it. He's weird in his own right.
[This is both helping incredibly and confusing him more. But there's the sound of scribbling as Smoker speaks, Rosi is taking notes.]
Flamboyant? Maybe that works for me. I tend to dress that way. I don't know why he'd think me on fire is cute. I don't know a lot right now. So basically if I can just get through this, even if he's not fond of me and I've made a mistake, I can make this a learning experience.
[Clumsy...
Flamingo.
He's never going to be free of the Donquixote bird joke curse.] I do like him. More than I want to admit. I guess the worst that can come out of this is beers with a friend on a houseboat for a weekend. [And his last attempt at dating, this is stressful.]
[Bless. Smoker will start calling him a secretary bird too, even if Marco is the more curbstomping type.]
He's definitely fond of you, or he'd avoid you, marine or not. He never wasted time hanging around Sakazuki. Or Borsalino. And he has a soft spot for marines who do things that would get them otherwise court-martialed, but are the right things to do. And where he spends his time is the only freedom he could claim for himself at his rank, so it means a lot to him. If he chooses to spend it with you, he likes you.
I figured that there's something between us, at least. I'm just not great at reading cues from him. Other people usually I do okay with. But this? This is different. And I want everything to go well, so between that and the confusion, that's why I texted you at a cursed hour begging for assistance.
[The sound of Rosinante's soft laugh can be heard. He's a little embarrassed, but mainly amused.]
I at least know how to do that. So maybe it'll work out like you say... [He scribbles down that final note, be yourself, although goodness knows he's not entirely impressed with himself as a rule.] Hopefully I won't set the houseboat on fire.
[There's a weak laugh, that time.] Thanks, Smoker.
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Secondly, who-- nooooooo wait, don't fucking answer that.
Go back to the calming the fuck down thing and work on that. Or as Kuzan would say, chill.
And stop trying to pay me financially. It's weird.
You're not an idiot. I've been a mess with this sort of thing too. We're marines, so it comes part of the package.
Bring yourself. Act natural. Normal. Whatever that means for you. I'm not an expert on Kuzan. Your best bet is to use the date to learn him for yourself. Get to know what he likes or not and whether that's something you like too, okay?
[Audio] Private
Please tell me that he actually likes me. He wouldn't agree to it if he didn't, right? A weekend alone says something about emotions involved, unless it's pity. And he wouldn't do that, I think?
I know how to go undercover. I know how to kill someone. How to fake a persona for years without ceasing. I do not know how to handle relationships.
[Audio] Private
I'm going to keep saying this, and you're not going to know what it means, but listen. Just be yourself. Use it as an opportunity to figure out what that means. And I don't get what's wrong with lipstick so I'm not the person to ask on that.
He likes... flamboyant? And he probably doesn't mind the setting on fire thing, probably finds it cute????? [It's good this isn't video, because Smoker is stretching his neck like an owl, so much head-tilting in his accidental physical thinking out loud and trying to stretch his brain to be thinking like Kuzan.]
[As far as Smoker knows, Aokiji likes big breasts. And not over the top serious conversations. So Nami, not Robin. Annnnnd?????]
[He has no idea. Smoker is a terrible friend.]
Don't think of it as handling. Just go in with the idea of having fun. I know. Believe me, I know, how impossible that sounds. Same with when I say, "Don't overthink it." I have trouble with all these things too. Don't look any further than this one event. Just this. Your mission is to enjoy it, and be yourself. And yes, that means figuring out what that means for you.
I'm not the person to ask about.... most of this. But that much I can say for sure.
This way, even if you don't hit it off uh... [He can't say "sexually" he'll vomit. Romant-- that's worse!!!]
[Compatibly....]
[TWITCHING.] In any way but as... what you already have.... then at least it's a good experience. Growing.
The things that are most important to Kuzan... from my perspective... which isn't the same as anyone else's...
Good conscience. Protective heart. Open to possibilities and thinking things through. Seeing things for himself. Ah, kids, the younger generation, and knowing that they're better than this one. A better future. And not that the strongest or most ruthless is justice. You've got all of that plenty, Rosinante. So I'm sure he appreciates that in you. A lot.
He also probably finds your reactions funny, so I don't think you can mess that up except by trying too hard to be fake. So don't, just be you. Clumsy flamingo and all. You've seen how he is with me, right? He purposely riles me up, and likes letting me blow off steam with it. He's weird in his own right.
[Audio] Private
Flamboyant? Maybe that works for me. I tend to dress that way. I don't know why he'd think me on fire is cute. I don't know a lot right now. So basically if I can just get through this, even if he's not fond of me and I've made a mistake, I can make this a learning experience.
[Clumsy...
Flamingo.
He's never going to be free of the Donquixote bird joke curse.] I do like him. More than I want to admit. I guess the worst that can come out of this is beers with a friend on a houseboat for a weekend. [And his last attempt at dating, this is stressful.]
[Audio] Private
He's definitely fond of you, or he'd avoid you, marine or not. He never wasted time hanging around Sakazuki. Or Borsalino. And he has a soft spot for marines who do things that would get them otherwise court-martialed, but are the right things to do. And where he spends his time is the only freedom he could claim for himself at his rank, so it means a lot to him. If he chooses to spend it with you, he likes you.
Yeah, see? Sounds fun. Enjoy it.
[Audio] Private
I figured that there's something between us, at least. I'm just not great at reading cues from him. Other people usually I do okay with. But this? This is different. And I want everything to go well, so between that and the confusion, that's why I texted you at a cursed hour begging for assistance.
[The sound of Rosinante's soft laugh can be heard. He's a little embarrassed, but mainly amused.]
[Audio] Private
[Audio] Private
[There's a weak laugh, that time.] Thanks, Smoker.
[Audio] Private
Have fun you two crazy kids. Try not to scare the normies.
[That's a joke, Rosi, don't take it seriously.]
[Audio] Private
I don't think we'll be frightening anyone, but alright. Take care, Smoker. Thanks again for the advice.