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[voice] A stormy question

[Hello Luceti, is the nice little ice storm distracting you from post-Valentine's woes? Don't worry, here's a grumpy marine asking questions to painfully reminds you all.]

Seeing as we're all stuck inside -- [Once again, an usually feminine voice from Smoker's journal account.] -- I've got a question for everyone affected by the event.

Are there normally lines you won't cross in relationships that the Malnosso seem to cross for you? Or do they seem to take those into consideration instead? Since they seem to know us pretty well, it begs the question whether they're using our weaknesses, or if it's completely random.

And if anyone needs help out there in the storm, let me know. This weather is good practice.

[ooc: and feel free to threadjump like the dickens. It might be the only time Smoker keeps quieter than not, seeing as he's a girl now.]

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Sometimes just knowing is half of the battle.

Just because they fuck with you doesn't mean you have to change.

[Like Smoker, and his issues with shirts :| Because that is totally healthier.]

But I have, if for the better. Which sounds...strange. I know. Especially considering how badly I took it to begin with but- [She blinks and looks off to the side, over to the huddled group she was locked in with for the rest of the storm.] It has...helped me come to terms with issues I had before I came here. And cope. Or rather, not cope, but forgive myself my past transgressions? That. Makes little sense but it is the best way I can articulate it at the moment.

That's a lot better then.

Coming to terms with the past and moving forward and all that. I think I get it, even if I can't claim to have done the same.

You can only drag a heavy weight around for so long before it tangles around your ankles and keeps you from moving ahead. I'm...tired. Of being held in place by something I can't change. It was unfortunate, it was painful but. I have so many reasons to be happy, now. Why not allow it? [She shrugs.]

Moving forward is always for the best. In my world if you even stop moving for a second, you'll fall behind it before you know it.

It's rather wise of you.

Of me? Oh no. [A sudden laugh, quickly muffled.] No, no. I just...recently. Came to terms with it. It is Lupin, and Ben, and Ginia and...the friends I have made here that have insisted upon it, reminded me of it. Helped me see this. I am not so much wise as I have wise friends.

Still more than most can say.

Wait. Did you just call Lupin wise?

In some respects, he is. In others, not as much. He is as he is, wise or not depending upon the situation.

Let's just go with experienced, and save our brains the trouble of deciphering it further.

But he can be, that is. Except when he's not, and he just acts like he is, or when he is but acts like he's not, or when he isn't and acts like he is but really he isn't or-

[She blinks down at the camera, runs over what she's said, what she meant to say and sighs.]

...I think experienced would be the safest way to put it, yes.

[Chuckles, though it practically comes out as a giggle now.]

Still, his good side is wider than you'd expect.

He has been kind, and far more patient with me than I would have expected. I will have to find him something suitable to thank him for it, one day.

[Pauses trying to think of ideas, but he's got nothing that wouldn't create problems for others (like himself) in Luceti so he just shrugs.]

I'm sure you'll find something suitable.

If you dig long enough here, you may find almost anything. Given time, and direction, I may.

[Side glance. That truly applies in more ways than one.]

Yes, well, that's mostly a good thing.

[Suddenly remembering the purpose of this conversation, Adele blinks back down at her journal.]

I take it, though. That you weren't, well. Effected at all. Though I cannot help but wonder at why, It would have been doubly mortifying as you are. Were they to try it. Then again you do not let such things change you. So. perhaps they thought it was better not to bother?

I'm not sure if I was affected... or not. Which makes it two times more confusing.

You are...uncertain? That is confounding.

Tell me about it.

I suppose once you are back to yourself it will become more clear? Or perhaps not.

It's not the girl thing. I feel clearer now that the Shift is over, but it could just be...

It's a lot of factors. Too many to process all at once. Maybe I should just ignore them.

[Except Smoker can't ignore anything.]

Clarity once the shift ends typically is a sign that you were, in fact, affected, just a bit. The question is if it was an inflation, subversion, inversion, or aversion to emotions you already had. These things seemed to work best on emotions that were already present.

Err... maybe all four.

Not that there was anything present except what... should already be there. Right.

I wish I could be more helpful but...I am one of the last people that can discuss these things with any kind of confidence, even with Ben's help in sorting out my own emotions. Should you have need of an ear, though. I am willing.

Thanks.

It's kind of... even more messed up. Because Shift or not, it doesn't change things in my case. It's where I go from here.

And I'm not sure where forward is. It's an unusual feeling for me.

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