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Water 7, Finding Fiyero

This place is actually as impressive as it looks at first glance. The architecture reminds me of Loguetown's buildings but the canals for traveling are certainly... unique. ~~Miss my bike.~~ I still haven't tried the mizu meat but Nataku and Allen I picked up some mizu candy while I was checking on the ship's repairs. I got extra forgetting Yachiru isn't here so if you want some come get it.

A note to all crew: I don't care how "cute" you think the yagara sea bulls are, we are NOT keeping one! No more damn pets!

I have to leave to go rescue an idiot. No one do anything stupid while I'm gone, Tashigi's in charge. Any final questions ask now. And try not to leave the island. Especially you Lavi. If you want to take the sea train it can wait until I get back.

Fukuro I need your help if you've got the spare time.

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God damn it Rinali. It's just... He's not the problem. He's not the worst you could do, he's not a pirate thank God, and he's obnoxious but that's hardly unique to him alone. You just deserve the best and he falls short so far as I'm concerned. You're not as happy as you should be and even if it's not his fault I still want to punch him for not fixing it since he was arrogant enough to take you to his ship under the idea he could.

You called me the closest thing you have to a father figure, well that pisses him off. And he has a right to be given I'm no longer your commanding officer and no matter how much I care for your well-being, I still have to let you do as you please and I don't like it. I don't like being told how to handle my men and no, I haven't stopped thinking of you as one of my men or a daughter or however you wish to see it.

He's taking advantage of you and I'm fairly certain if he hurts you I'll feel the need to hunt him down. And I know you like him, love him, whatever, and I don't dislike him I just despise watching your training and skills go to waste while he plays around at being a teenager.

Fine. Cry or yell at me or refuse to speak to me ever again or whatever it is you're planning.

...Advantage of me?

...I don't- I do love him. In a way above my friends. I want to protect him and be strong for him but- I can't. I don't think I can...I don't think I'm what he needs or wants anymore and that's my own fault for that. I miss- I miss sneaking out late at night to visit him. I still have that...little yellow flower he gave me but- I just don't know. I hate feeling like I'm overwhelming him. I hate feeling weak.

I just- don't know anymore.

.... Rinali...

Then get stronger. Strong enough to protect him in whatever way you can. The Grand Line isn't a safe place for anyone, and not many people know this but Gold Roger was already sick and dying by the time he got onto the Grand Line. He became the Pirate King with a death sentence on his head long before the World Government gave him one. You can't stop time and you shouldn't try. Move forward with it, get stronger, it's the only way TO move. The only way to live or do anything.

If you want to come back to my ship it's always open to you but not so you can run away. You're both young, even things he needs he might not know and things he wants he might not need, you have to figure that out for yourself. You're strong so get stronger and work at it instead of moping.

And don't do this for him. Do what YOU want for you. Let him take care of himself. I promise he's easily up to that task.

I do consider that. It's why I'm alive...To be stronger for my brother so I can return to him. I've just...never been in love before. I still don't know what's right and what's wrong when I feel the way I do about him. I will get stronger, but first I need to believe in myself to do such...and that takes time. I want to protect Leo like I want to protect my brother. So much I'd d ie for them.

But- you never told me how he was taking advantage of me.

... Don't. They're not worth sacrificing your own life over and if they were they wouldn't want you to do so for them either.
You'll get stronger by doing. Through experience and learning what works best for you. Stop worrying about tomorrow and just face it headon. If you're going to protect him the best you can, then do it. Strengthen your resolve and don't second guess yourself.

......................................
Tsk.
Forget it. Neither of you have had a relationship before and I'm not about to hold that against him. Just don't do something for him you don't really want to, understand?

But they are. My brother is...he sacrificed his own freedom for me just so I wouldn't be alone...T-That's why I'm an Exorcist. To make the world beautiful for him so he can be free..

...I can't forget it though.

And you think a good way of paying back his sacrifice is ignoring what he'd want or why he did it? Dying for someone can only happen once. Get strong enough and you can protect them hundreds of times over.

He's not even aware he's walking all over you. Either he doesn't realize what's wrong or that anything is wrong or you're hiding it well enough or he's just an idiot; but either way he's happy at the expense of your happiness. So he's taking advantage of your desire to please him and I find that hard to forgive however unintentional.

But-that's not what...If it comes down to it I will for him. I-It's not like I go out to purposely find a way to die for him...them...

But- even if you think he is...If it makes him happy- it makes me happy to see him smile. Even if he ignores me or hates me or doesn't...love me anymore. As long as he smiles I know that he'll be alright. A-And so will I.

Understood. But make sure all other means are exhausted first. Because you aren't respecting what they want if you do that.

Rinali you're not listening you're.... What do you mean even if he ignores you or doesn't love you anymore?

Mm..

Wouldn't you if you were in love with someone? You'd want to see them happy no matter what? E-Even if it wasn't you causing it?

...........

Rinali. What do you mean? You think... he's unhappy?!

...More so bored b-but...yes?

Bored. On the Grand Line. There's a luxury. Girl, why do you think he'd bored of you? That doesn't even make sense.

Look I might have spoken in haste. I've had a few drinks since then. Explain what happened. You've been been acting off since the anon meme and that idiot I told off. At first I blamed Leo and if he's ignoring you then I will keep doing so but if there's something else...

I'm not...exciting like other girls. I'm not pretty like them and I guess I'm just afraid I can't keep his attention.

T-That's pretty much it...it kind of killed whatever confidence I had...Because maybe that person was right.At Halloween too Leo said we were friends. I don't mind that but- I suppose it left a lingering feeling of -well maybe that's all we are now.

A small vacation to Water 7 sounds like something to help get my head clear.

Hn. Invitation is still on the table lass but don't come just because you're too scared to face him. I expect better of you than that. You might love Leo but if he didn't love you I don't think he'd try to spare your feelings. Love him all you want but if anything he's the lucky one.

Bring the lion with you. If you take off and don't tell him he'll be hurt. And if you don't give him a chance to prove what he feels you might as well just stab him in the back. Just you two can come and you can come do some pirate hunting and be with the other exorcists. Maybe it will remind you better who and what you are.

Rinali if making him happy makes you happy that's fine. But you'd be better be happy from it. If you'd rather eat oranges than pears then TELL him so. Don't just do something you hate thinking it'll make him happy. It's the same as throwing yourself on your sword for him. If he's worth it at all, he wouldn't want you to be getting upset like this.

I was thinking of...j-just a break. T-Telling him I would leave for a few days while I clear my head.

...I do love him. And he does make me happy. I just- want to do all I can to make him happy.

Then why aren't you happy? Because you think you're not making him happy?

If you leave him behind without letting him understand why you're upset I guarantee you he'll be miserable. Of course if that's what you want in order to pay him back for being upset yourself...

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